Well, after all this time....

...and all these holidays, I'm almost motivated to do something about where I am. This post is sort of like an AA meeting: "Hi, my name is Alyson, and I'm thinking about trying to lose weight again." Despite how OK I had been with my weight and how I look, I find I am not looking forward to going to the family after-Christmas party tonight. I don't feel as okay today as I did last month. It's probably because of all the really great sweets I've eaten these last few days, or weeks. I feel like I'm not my best.

One, two, three...

I'm on my second day of counting calories. I'm not going to weigh myself, because (1) I still don't care what I weigh, and (2) it always psyches me out (if I don't lose weight after counting calories, I eat more the next week and undo all the good work).

I don't want to obsess over what I eat; but neither do I want to feel out of control, like I'm eating the whole world every time I sit down to the table. Was feeling just a little powerless, and this is my way to get the power back.

Am a little hungry (because I left at least half the world unconsumed at lunchtime). But just a little. Retraining the body, retraining the mind.